These fews days many things happened..
I undergone morning shift in SGH.. Busy neh. So busy that my break keep pushing back.. -.-
I heartaches seeing some of my patients.. :(
TB tps was "demolished" on friday.. 10/7 So angry with those no brains people that day.. =.=
Yesterday went work at wheelock tps.. Sales 4k neh.. Work in bar yesterday haha.. Hows my performance??
After work went bugis ate steamboat.. Got ah cai, brice n evelyn, sam, wan yee, tom n me..
Glad that wan yee had accepted the phone, happy that she likes it.. I think it's something you need and want so.. Good for you ^^
Pei qi, i'm really really sorry.. I think it's really selfish of me to decide for you whether you are joining or not.. We will sure go eat again!
Went work today.. Dad fetch me there.. As usual that the most time we could communicate..
I have been sick for quite some times.. Thought it would get better but some how it worsen.. Please body. RECOVER!! I cannot afford to be sick.. 100% no!
Left wl early.. Saw that facial expression of sam.. Don't be shocked la.. hehe. Kupu very guai de..
Went bankit brought shoe, prepaid.. Thought of seeing doctor but...
- Don't want waste money
- Don't think it will get better with medicine as usual
- I'm not that sick..
- If condition worsen, i'll get a MC and not go to SGH and work. I promised.. But :( saturday need to make up..
Some sort argue with dad over the phone of seeing or not.. He change my mind on seeing doctor some how.. He suggest me to buy cough syrup and urge me home rest.. -.-
Reach home downstair saw ganma.. Chatted..
My eyes was filled with tears 3 times today chatting.. Think some how i couldn't control my emotions.. -,-
One chatting with ganma another my dad..
I just some what felt very wei qu and xing ku and lastly not being able to fulfilled my duty as a daughter..
I cannot explain to any family members where my money gone.. My mouth must be tight sealed. But at least i gotten my pay, financial stable a bit.. Glad that all financial problem are settle for the moment.. If this carry on i really go bang walls liao..
I cannot explain why i don't want to come home..
I cannot balance my time..
I cannot control my legs where it wants to bring me to.
I cannot stop feeling uncomfortable
I cannot stop arguing with mum.. After so many times she pry onto my things.
I cannot stand the attitude they giving me.
I cannot control my tears but to cry alone now a days..
I cannot scarifies many things for you..
I cannot stop thinking about my past now a days..
I cannot stop thinking about TYT as her birthday is near. It's 7/8 not 8/7
I cannot reject request.
I cannot stop pushing myself to strive harder.
I cannot stop thinking..
I cannot stop feeling heartaches every times i withdraw money
I cannot stop crying now..
I cannot feeling lousy now.
There are just so many cannot..
& I have been mentally torture over all these cannots.
Now whoever mention my soft spot i just can't stop crying..
What have i become? A crybaby?
Nevertheless i hide it very well beh?
Only heileng, i can type out everything.. It makes me feels so much better.. So i guess i should thanks bro for opening up my user and relieves out my stress?
I gotten my needs and i am really thankful that i've worked so hard during my holidays..
I've pulled through the holidays!! Now gonna handle another higher level..
Now that i'm sick and weak.. Can't do much liao..
I feels pampered and some what happy that i have a group of friends behind me.. They took care of me well.. They always company me and entertain me.. Cheers!
I think mum suffers a lot since i sick and showing her cold wars.. All the arguments..
One by one, now everyone became sick and feels tired in the family.. Who will stand in the front to keep us going?
Everyone has their difficulties.. :(
I wants to rely on someone to do everything for me, while i take a short break..
I guess i could get H1N1 easily if my hospital has a confirm case.. -.-
Now i have flu like symptoms and sightly higher temperature i guess my dooms are approaching..
Thanks si pei n gary for the lozenges:)
Gonna jiayou.. No worries~
Clkl
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