我真的太天真了。人有时候真的可以很绝，亲人也如此。
剩下的考卷，我和你拼了！我不会再让你们瞧不起。我会争气、熬下去！不让你们看笑话。
我林凯玲在这里宣誓，谁要对我家人不利、或什么不适、不管什么都好、就连说我家人的坏话、要我知道，我一定豁出去。黑冷会在这里帮我见证。
我已经封闭了自己。。不再作一个戴着面具的小丑。我要很坦然得面对事实，不逃避。宰相肚里能沉船，我要理智的对待阿！
Just now, while waiting for chemistry to start, i keep thinking about wad moii sis sae.. It is something that causes moii family to suffer for years.. And moii sista is realli very pathetic.. Since young she have to face matters tat should not even exist at all.. Thinking about this, i realised, the 3 of us does not have any childhood memories.. Experience matters tat a normal family will never even tot of it..
I was scare as the concourse is full of people and i HATE stangers! Hearing people toking, laughing, i felt disgusted, i felt tat they were fake.. why? WHY? Wad the hell happen? I sms moii sista, clarence.. Soon, Xiaoying came.. I felt calmer after seeing her.. I was so helpless at the concourse..
Soon. xiaoying sae wan go walk walk.. we walk to the hall check our sitting arrangement.. Then saw yuting sitting alone.. I lied. I lied to xiaoying i want go toilet and ask her company yuting.. I found out tat i am afraid to be close to woosa when yuting is near.. I dono. I dono. I dono.
I am so F-up stress la..
Then i walk away.. Face the crowds again.. Feel like fainting.. Then saw weize, asked him caiwei, peiqi whereabout.. Then go find them and cool down myself..
Then, call clarence chat, tot he can entertain miie.. Sian...
Then report to hall.. I went in the hall and get sitted.. Wtf! I forgot moii IC.. Damn, i ran out and take.. Moii heart pounds so hard like next minute it's gonna fail.. Then start to do.. Last 15mins i was halfway through section B wif blanks in section A.. I speed up and manage to hand in with no blanks.. But, i believe some ans were craps.. Before i dash off.. Compare ans abit.. MOii ans all different from them.. haish.. But Julia and miie promise Joseph we must stay happy when we leave the hall.. Wad done is done, cannot change.. Moii fate is seal when the time is up..
At evening, argue wif bro.. Todae mum sick.. When bro is bathing, i was getting ready.. Mum was in the room wif sista.. Mum said she wan sleep, i either wake her at ten or after i bath.. So i slack abit waiting for bro to be done.. Then, i took my time, bro scolded miie not auto.. Then sae i never care for mum, never allow her use to wash her factory clothes.. Damn, i explain but no use.. See, wad is the POINT of explaning? That's why i make myself to become a mute.. After 0's still got 3 weeks liddat.. I really wish the time can fast forward and pause there as long as possible.. Let miie rest and recharge.. Lastly let miie cry like nobody business..
Signing off,
Clkl
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